08.25.07
I was out running some errands today and saw a few pregnant women. It still pains me to see someone pregnant. I almost ran into our next door neighbor this morning who is due around the same time I was. That would have been hard to see her. B. was talking to her and said she looked very pregnant. What is it that since we lost the baby, we see more pregnant women and hear about babies all the time. It’s unreal. I have a hard time being happy around pregnant women, I usually try not to look at her belly or if people talk to me about other peoples’ babies, I don’t say much. I know they don’t mean anything and probably think I’m over it because “it’s been 4 months and I wasn’t that far along”, but if they only knew…
Kristen said,
August 26, 2007 at 8:08 pm
I am a newbie to your blog but I just wanted to say that I can truly relate to how you feel.
I have had 2 miscarriages and I feel like everywhere I go, it is a pregnancy convention. It can be so hard to just go out in public. I don’t want to be a hermit but I don’t want everyone else’s belly bumps in my face, you know?
It always gets me when people say “you weren’t that far along”. I lost one baby at 5 weeks and another at 11.5 weeks and I can tell you that I felt each of them the same. My dreams went down the toilet with both losses. And whether I ever have a baby in my arms or not, I will grieve those losses forever.
XOXO,
Kristen
Melanie said,
August 27, 2007 at 3:53 pm
Welcome to my blog! It’s great to have contact with people who have gone through the same thing. Friends and family try to understand but unless they have gone through it, they never will. That’s a main reason I started this blog, so maybe someone new who is going through it can relate and have support. I’m glad you are reading
Maz said,
July 30, 2009 at 8:01 pm
Hi I’m new to this as well, I had a miscarriage myself at the end of May 09. Most days I think im doing Ok, getting through the day and doing ‘normal’ things. Im really struggling with my friends right now. We were all pregnant together, with me being the last. One has just had her baby, a gorgeous girl and the other is now heavily pregnant. Over the last few weeks I’ve listened to them chatting, their worries, how they are sick of being pregnant and just wish it would come out. I just want to scream at them that I wish I was uncomfortable, getting kicked or not sleepin (for that reason). They have been amazing with me and I am really pleased for them but sometimes I just cant stand to be around them. I come home from seeing them and cry for hours.
Its not just them there are babies, pregnant women and insensitive people everywhere. I feel there is nowhere that I can escape to.
I’ve only read up to this part of your story and its like your reading my mind. Thanks for writing it, its nice to know I’m not alone and all these thoughts that are running round my head are not irrational.
Thanks